Random thoughts of a momma

There are so many things just flying though my head. It kind of reminds me of one of those old school video games, lights and pings going all over. Today is the funeral of a young man that I only knew through his job at Fred's. Why cant I get him off my heart? Maybe because I say that I will miss seeing him. Or could it be regrets that once again I am left to wonder "did I do all that I could/should have to reach out to him". Or is it empathy for his parents who have to go on without him? Maybe I am scared that one day that will be me...Have I REALLY shown my people how much I love them? Or am I so busy worrying and stressing that I forget to embrace each moment of every day? I always have such great intentions, but I have trouble actually following through. Anyone else feel that way? I want to do great things, but some days I just get through. I want to have a "bucket list". Sometimes getting to the end of the day is enough. But I want more! I want more time, more motivation, less fear of failure. So many things I wish I could do over...regrets. But you know what? Today is a brand new day! I am alive, I am a daughter of the King, my family is safe, I have my home, I have a job that I love and by golly I am going to make the most of this! Lamentations 3:22-24 New Living Translation (NLT) 22 The faithful love of the Lord never ends![a] His mercies never cease. 23 Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. 24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!” He is true to His promises. I WILL hold on to that secret promise He has given me. Waiting and watching...